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(443) The not-so-ideal weekend getaway.

  • Jul. 23rd, 2008 at 2:55 AM
the Reality
I just got back on Monday in the late afternoon and spent the whole of yesterday facebooking while dropping by Darul Ghufran for Ust. Rahmah in the late evening. True to God, it was an eye-opening weekend. The two nights there made me an insomniac, except for that four hours after I took my medication. But that's that. The screams and the incessant shouts both in the wards and from other wards in the random hours of the night made my mind go wild. Feeling vulnerable is an understatement, especially when I was sandwiched between two restrained patients. I can safely say I've never felt so alone and reserved in my whole entire life, those two nights were vividly torturous. And what dy'know, the ward's coincidentally reflective of my bra size measurements -_-''

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(441) We could be so happy and free.

  • Jul. 16th, 2008 at 1:11 AM
the Quaint
Ok you know what. Have some decency please. If you feel the need to have sex at some random Hotel 81 along Geylang Road, then keep it in your discretion. The whole blogging world does not need to know how you got lucky or how you spread your damn legs for random guys after clubbing. I am THIS close to spit out crude languages to describe people like you. Don't use those words like pangkeng and "siallah dia main aku sedap" LIKE WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU, ON YOUR DAMN BLOG, FOR ALL TO SEE?

Apa dah bangga sangat ke kangkang biadap hari-hari?!

I just don't get it y'know. And Malays are pissed off for being called mats and minahs, when CLEARLY they do things that are just beyond stupidity in the kingdom of Stupidom! I don't give a shit if you come back-to-back or he got on top of you or you doing the rodeo on him, I DON'T GIVE A SHIT. But I do give a rat's ass to those blogs that are just SO GOD DAMN TACTLESS in whatever they blog about. Kalau bangsa lain, I wouldn't even bother, but it's my own people, my own race and these people just BLATANTLY BRAG ABOUT HOW 'SHIOK' PANGKENG WAS LAST NIGHT, WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU GUYS, GOT FUCKED TOO MUCH THAT YOUR BRAIN CAN'T FUNCTION WELL?

God. Ridiculous. Have pride in yourself. Or better still, keep it off the web and inside your damn sticky pants. I swear every little thing is pissing me off by the minute.

p.s. I'm touched by those personal emails regarding my previous entry. I promise I'll reply latest by tomorrow evening. That and the recommendations in the replies attached to the entry. I know I can count on you guys for rational feedbacks on my future, thank you so much =) See, you guys managed to make me smile a wee bit despite me staying under the blanket all day, not eating and sleeping and armed with a pair of swollen eyes. My life's swell.

Literally.

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(440) Memories last forever with you.

  • Jul. 14th, 2008 at 7:25 PM
the Bass

Functioning without sleep for more than 24 hours is driving me insane. My focus and attention span is worse than a goldfish's right now. My eyes are officially swollen and bruised and basically I avoided talking to anyone for the whole of today. It feels therapeutic to express it down in words here. I'm feeling extremely hungry and uberly sleepy but my mind keeps racing around that, well, I'm far from having the peace and serenity around my head. It feels torturous y'know.

I started reading Palahniuk's Snuff last night and I'm left with two more chapters. It's amazing how it serves as a temporary escape to read up on other people's problems. That the world is far from being rosy and you're not the only one who got hit by the shit thrown into the high-speed ceiling fan.

I need suggestions on something that's been bothering me all these time.
It's at the end of this entry, hope I get to hear your thoughts on it.

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(439) The universe and dark matters.

  • Jul. 14th, 2008 at 3:57 AM
the Knight

I honestly can't sleep. And it does not help that I'm watching Stalking Jihad ohmyfuckingfuck WHAT IS WRONG WITH TERRORIST CELLS IN ASIA THEY'RE SO SICK THEY USE ISLAM TO JUSTIFY THE ACTS OF RAPING WOMEN WHO WERE TAKEN AS HOSTAGES urgh, men like these, they should be cursed with shriveling dicks oozing with pus, thick yellow smelly painful pus.
 

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I realized I'm extra descriptive
and innovatively vengeful when I'm down,
hmmm.



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(438) You just know it, you know?

  • Jul. 13th, 2008 at 8:57 PM
the Defeat

I'm not only drained. I feel as though all my dreams are shattered,
glued back and then smashed again with a metal baseball bat.

I wish to stop breathing altogether.



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(436) Paper stacked as tall as Yao Ming.

  • Jul. 9th, 2008 at 4:33 AM
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  1. It's been a while.
  2. Shall make it a quick update since it is after all four thirty in the morning.
  3. I've been dependent on laxatives lately. Very dependent. I don't know if that's healthy.
  4. Anyone has any suggestions for fibre pills I can pop on instead of yellow mini pills of laxatives?
  5. The bid to quit is slowly kicking in. I've been reducing my stick intake to four a day. Torturous.
  6. Am not going to do this cold turkey-ly. Shall never make the same mistake twice. I mean thrice. Umm, ok I've lost count on how many times I have the urge to quit smoking.
  7. But watching Opera's feature on Quitting smoking (Dr. Oz) just now freaked the hell out of me.
  8. Should I go back to the patches, hmm.
  9. I'm down with a bad flu and insane coughings for the past one week. Thanks to the sudden reduction in sticks from 12-16 a day to furktastic 4.
  10. Life's been good though. I'm living it by the day. And it's awesome =)
  11. I need to psyche myself to take up yoga again. Staring at my pink mat solves nothing.
  12. Altogether I have around 500++ of pictures to upload for the next entry.
  13. But I don't know. It's been so long since I've last updated, I doubt anyone's still reading this space.
  14. I have a hell lot of things in my head to blog about, like:
  15. I don't understand why other blogs blog about the blogwar between dawn and xx -_-''
  16. And someone please please enlighten me, why do fat people wear stripes?! Like honestly, do they seriously think they look any thinner with stripes? Who cares if it's horizontal or vertical? They still look like MORE STRETCHMARKS. Why, is it a hidden secret, that the fatter you get, the smaller your eyes are?

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Lately I get annoyed easily and my mood swings are everywhere,
 I think I'm ovulating.

Good morning world.


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(432) Let the beat wind you up.

  • Jun. 16th, 2008 at 2:27 AM

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(430) Is someone getting the best of you?

  • Jun. 15th, 2008 at 3:15 AM
the System

Been pretty busy lately, somehow this semester break is draining the blue hell out of me. It's almost as though it's another round of school semester all over again but with much cut-throat competition and nonsensical politics among the colleagues. It's funny sometimes to just observe these working adults bickering among themselves over money, amazing how people get ruthless and tactless when it comes to valuing monetary worth.

Sometimes I wonder if life would be much dandier if everyone's like Peter Pan y'know, we don't need to grow so fast and we'll always look at the world through a child's eyes (The Prince!). I was getting ready for work days back when I heard the neighbour above me fighting and throwing things around. It turned out to be domestic abuse. And somehow you can't stop wondering why the hell these men even hit their wives in the early morning (then again I'm not saying one can hit his wife when it's in the evening or at night -_-''). My neighbour is notorious for loaning cash from Sir AhLong (you should see the paints and locks involved, it's like a ghetto without guns around here) and I'm not surprised he came home early morning all drunk and beating the crap out of his wife.

It's sad really. You would think marriage would mean respecting each other and treating your spouse with affection, but guess that only happens in the past? I don't know. I've never heard my father raising his voice on my mum, vice versa. I don't know if I'm being naive but I just cannot fathom why a man could do such a thing, being abusive in nature towards the one woman who bears his children.

I mean, before marriage all sayang sayang, dear this dear that, I will cross the sea of fire for you I will love you till the end of time You're my heart and soul I can't live without you Be mine for a lifetime. Once ROM papers are legally signed, there goes the flying pots and pans.

HOW CAN ONE NOT FEAR MARRIAGES?

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